I smoke on a daily because I have issue on a daily. From coming out of the hospital to becoming busy to losing every one of my friends. What else am I here for? I screw everything up. I have a guy who was willing to give me his everything and I pushed him away. I’ve hurt my friends with my own depression. But I understand I hurt them and they don’t know how to help me but I’m fighting this battle all alone. It’s hard. It’s draining. I smoke work smoke work. I’m literally useless. Everyone has gave up on me. I just need a hug.