I am so confused.

It’s the worst I’ve felt in months. I don’t know what to do about it. How can I take Care of someone when I’m just turning 18 ? How someone put you down so much for you’re looks. I have so many issues and flaws and you choose to use them against me. Stop purposely hurting me. It’s been years you’ve been attacking me, both of you need to stop. It’s too much for one to handle. Don’t ever tell someone to kill themselves cause you have no idea what that can put in a persons mind. I do everything to get away from you guys but its like you look for anything to break me down. I’m psychically and mentally drain , I can get out of my bed , I can’t talk to my bestfriends cause I’m embarrassed. I can’t talk to anyone because its always the same thing and the same response. I need someone just one person to tell them it’s not okay , I need only one person on my side. But everyone tries to stay mutual. Obviously then don’t listen to me telling them to stop , maybe they may listen to someone else. I need strength to keep moving and to keep living my life with a smile everyone knows I always have. It hurts to pretend nothing is wrong but really everything is wrong.